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Wow oh wow! I can’t say enough about how thankful I am to have been baptized and what a blessing it was to share it with so many of you through my feed. I am in Awe of God and the way he works in our lives everyday. 

I got baptized alongside six others from my church and the whole experience was just amazing. Being baptized felt like a renewal and commitment to following Christ's  path for my life that I have been needing. It felt as if my past guilt, shame, and sorrow had been washed away and God used this to show me I am whole and holy and his daughter. After I share more about my current season of life and testimony you may start to see what a true renew my baptism was for my walk with Christ and a way he was able to  shower me with his grace and redeeming powers of love. 

and this water symbolizes baptism that now saves you also—not the removal of dirt from the body but the pledge of a clear conscience toward God. It saves you by the resurrection of Jesus Christ -1 Peter 3:21

The day of my baptism I had never been so nervous. I have done speaking events in front of hundreds of people and been confident to share what was on my heart but sharing my testimony with such raw, new and heavy things seemed like a mountain I wouldn’t be able to climb. My palms were sweating and I was shaking as I shared my testimony, afraid of judgment and backlash I expected to receive or thought I deserved. I am someone who hates to cry and while I was sharing my testimony pain and unsettled feelings washed up within me and I overflowed with tears and began to have trouble even speaking. God’s grace washed over me and before I knew it I was in the pool being prayed over and baptized. I forgot about the many people in the audience and was able to be in the moment and feel the gravity and amazing grace that had just been given to me as a child of God. 

 For all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ - Galatians 3:27

God took my greatest fear sharing something so personal and used it to further my walk with him and also  demonstrate his grace to me and remind me of what it looks like to love and show the kindness of Christ.

The day I was baptized God showed me

  1. That I am his daughter & nothing will steal me from his love 
  2. The kindness, love and what it looks like to respond to someone as Christ would 
  3. He gave a confidence of his plans in my current and new season of life 

After I shared my testimony so many people from the crowd came up to me, poured prayers over me and words of encouragement. I didn’t expect to receive that much love and kindness but God showed his grace and brought a community of believers into my life to demonstrate his loving, unjudging forgiveness. They told me that they were inspired by the courage and showed me grace like I had never seen before. 

God showed me that the real beauty of being his follower and being a disciple is sharing every piece of our testimony, and allowing him to steer our paths, giving him to glory to mend the broken and make beauty out of ashes. 

While you read my testimony you can see how imperfect I am, the pain I faced and the sins I fell into. You will know that I’m no better than you or anyone else but simply I’m just a girl with a heart for Jesus and a desire to follow him. 

My prayer for whoever reads this testimony is that they are reminded of God's grace and redemption through my words. That not only will this be a story of a life told but a example of how amazing God is and just how amazing it is in the ways he works and moves mountains for his children. 

 

My testimony

Growing up my parents raised me with faith, I went to catholic church and would attend CCD classes but it wasn’t until I was 10 years old that God showed me there was much more to faith then just attending church services and learning the traditions of a church. 

When I was 10 years old I was diagnosed with cancer and during that time the Lord showed my what it means to receive his mercy and grace through faith and trust in Jesus. I submitted to Christ and I began to learn what a relationship with him looked like. He gave my mom a bible verse to cling to while I was sick that was Luke 8:50  "But when Jesus heard it, he answered him, saying, Fear not: believe only, and she shall be made whole.”  During that time the verse gave my family  hope and a promise that Christ fulfilled in my life. I saw Jesus work all around me, by turning pain to something to glorify him , healing me completely and changing the lives of people around me.  

Because of my cancer diagnoses the Lord used my story to inspire others and remind them of His remedying healing powers. 

After I went to high school I went to a private catholic high school and lost sight of the strong faith I once held. I wouldn’t go out and party or date around or  anything like that but I lost sight of how important it was to read the bible, pray, and spend time with Jesus. 

My Junior year of high school I began to pursue my walk with Christ again and was reminded why I needed a relationship with him. He gave me an online platform to start sharing his word and started to develop a deep desire for him within me to have a relationship and serve him with all of my actions.                                                              

I have heard people say faith is a journey and my walk with Jesus truly has been. A few months ago I fell into sin with my fiancé  and we found out that we are expecting a son this January. Even though I sinned the Lord is continuing to work in my life. taking ashes and bringing them to beauty. He has brought so many people into my life to strengthen  my faith and walk with Jesus to allow this situation to glorify him and refine and mature me through this. I know the Lord has forgiven me and is walking through this season of life with me to redeem the broken and shine his love. I am so thankful for the mercy, patience, and forgiveness of our God. I’m so thankful that he continues to draw me to Himself, and that Christ died for all my sin, past present, and future that I may repent and walk in forgiveness as a daughter of the king.

Through every season of life Jesus has been with me and I feel so blessed to know who my savior is. 

This is my testimony. It may be short but those are the things Ive walked through with Christ by my side. This is the season of life I am in and the way I have seen God work around me has been nothing short of amazing and such a blessing. 

Currently I am in college pursuing my degree, working on planning a wedding to my fiancé and father of my son and preparing to be a mother and wife in the way that God has called me to be. 

God has restored my soul in this season of repentance and preparation. He has changed my heart where need be, removed people from my path and brought an amazing community of believers into my life to ministry to me during this time. He has brought couples who walked through the same season to show me just how he will use this child for his glory and allow the shame to fall off as I cling to his mercy and grace. 

Psalm 51

Have mercy on me, O God,
    according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
    blot out my transgressions.
Wash away all my iniquity
    and cleanse me from my sin.

 For I know my transgressions,
    and my sin is always before me.
 Against you, you only, have I sinned
    and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict
    and justified when you judge.
 Surely I was sinful at birth,
    sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
    you taught me wisdom in that secret place.

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
    wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
 Let me hear joy and gladness;
    let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
 Hide your face from my sins
    and blot out all my iniquity.

 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
    and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
 Do not cast me from your presence
    or take your Holy Spirit from me.
 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
    and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
    so that sinners will turn back to you.
Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
    you who are God my Savior,
    and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
Open my lips, Lord,
    and my mouth will declare your praise.
 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
    you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
17 My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
    a broken and contrite heart
    you, God, will not despise.

 May it please you to prosper Zion,
    to build up the walls of Jerusalem.
Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,
    in burnt offerings offered whole;
    then bulls will be offered on your altar.